UPU

Assalamualaikum.

Hidup agak tunggang langgang ya sekarang. Macam-macam yang harus diselesaikan. Aku sekarang ni tengah buat pelbagai kerja dalam satu masa. Antaranya ialah mengisi borang UPU *Allah je tahu betapa peningnya nak isi lengkap semua ni. Selain tu, aku tengah tulis surat berhenti kerja yang harus dihantar pada esok hari.

Aku juga sedang mencari laman web untuk biasiswa. Sebagai tambahan, aku sedang melayan FB, message, bergayut kat telefon dan makan coklat Cadburry! Haa, yang ni semua saja kerja tambahan. :P

Okey, pasal UPU ni, aku dah pilih apa yang aku nak.

Bidang yang dipilih:

1. sains tulen

2. farmasi

3. ekonomi/perakaunan/perniagaan

Program pengajianyang dipilih:

1. asasi sains hayat-UIAM

2. asasi sains hayat-UM

3. asasi perubatan-UIAM

4. asasi sains fizikal-UM

5. asasi famasi-UIAM

6. diploma farmasi-UiTM

7. diploma perakaunan-UiTM

8. diploma sains aktuari-UiTM

Itu pilihan dan perancangan aku. Tapi, pilihan dan perancangan Allah adalah yang terbaik! Serahkan segalanya pada Allah. :)

Ehh? UPU buat hal pula. Kena isi lagi sekali? Hmm. Hmm. Hmm. Kertas lebih senang dari online.

Haihh, sabar je la. 

Keputusan SPM dah keluar!

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah! :)

Akhirnya debaran yang berbulan-bulan itu pun berakhir. Pada tarikh 21 Mac 2012 aku telah dapat keputusan SPM aku.

Sampai-sampai tu dah nampak dah muka-muka gelisah kawan-kawan aku berdebar menunggu keputusan. Aku dah terketar-ketar lutut tunggu saat penyampaian keputusan. >_<"

Aku dengar cerita 2 orang je yang dapat straight A+. Ya Allah, masa tu memang berharap sangat salah seorang tu aku tapi diorang cakap yang dapat tu dua lelaki. Sedihnya! Memang dah tahu lah masa tu, straight A+ bukan dalam genggaman dah. :'(

Masa cikgu sampaikan satu-satu keputusan SPM yang cemerlang, hati ni gelisah sangat. Tersenarai ke aku dalam list u? Mula-mula cikgu sebut nama Adham. Kemudian Asyraf. Kemudian.. Kemudian.. Kemudian.. 

Ehh? Mana nama aku ni? Aishhhhhh~

Kemudian, Ammanda Elydia. Ya Allah. Masa tu bahagainya aku dapat juga semua A walaupun tak semua A+. Air mata dah bertakung dalam mata, tunggu nak pecah je empangan tu. HAHA. Cikgu tanya, mana parents? Aku geleng kepala. Tak datang. :'(

Turun je pentas tu, aku tengok keputusan aku. A untuk BI? *empamgan pecah. T.T

Apa yang aku mimpi tu jadi kenyataan. Yang bezanya, aku dapat A untuk BI, bukan untuk PAI. Aku nak menangis sangat-sangat. Teacher Niza datang dan peluk aku. T.T Terima kasih teacher sebab pinjamkan bahu walau hanya untuk seketika. Lega hati sekejap. :')

Habis sesi penyerahan keputusan, ada sesi bergamabar! SESMA no1 Terengganu. SESMA masuk paper! ;)

Alhamdulillah.

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Lepas selesai semua, aku ambik keputusan untuk lawat nadzir. Kesian dia, teruk sakit sebab kemalangan. Semoga cepat sembuh ya. :)

Hmmm. aku ingatkan nak keluar dengan dia hari tu tap dia message cakap kena balik kemaman dah. Sedihnya! Ingatkan bolehlah jumpa sekejap. Mungkin tak ada rezeki kot. Lain kali mungkin?

Malam tu aku terus balik KL. Dalam bas, dia call. Kami berbual lama. Rindu. Tak sempat jumpa pun. Kat sekolah pun jumpa sekejap je. Dia cakap dia sayang aku. Sebak. Lama tak dengar sejak kejadian har tu. Sekarang, aku dah takut nak sebut perkataan tu lagi. Trauma datang kembali mungkin? Wuwwuwu.

Till here. Night peeps! ;)

SPM Nightmares!

Assalamualaikum.

First dream.

This dream begins with the situation of I'm preparing to go the school to receive the SPM result. When I reached the school, I felt so sad because I didn't recieve any call from the school saying that I need to go to the other schol to receive the result. Usually, when someone score straight A+, they will need to receive the result at the other school.

I cried a lot in my dream and as I woke up, I realized my pillow was wet with tears. >_<"

Then, I remembered that our teachers wanted our school to be the place for the straight A+ students receive their results. So, maybe there's still hope. I quickly got down the car and looked around. Everyone was so happy.

I saw Niesa, Hafiz, Akmal, Adham and Nik. Everyone were here but they were so sad. Then, i got to know that our school did not manage to get any straight A+ students. My heart beat fast. However, there were many students who achieved straight As! Eventhough it was a good new, but for me it was still not good enough as I target to become one of the straight A+ student. *sigh...

After that, I entered the hall as if I was taking my result. My teacher mde a sad expression cause I didn't reach the target. I cried and cried and cried a lot till I loss my consciousness.

I woke up! Ohh, it was just a dream. I do hope that it would not come true. I can't bear it!

Second dream.

This dream also begin just the same as the first dream but it turned different at the moment I entered the hall. When I step my foot into the hall, there was a table. Sitting near to it were my ustazah and ustaz. On the table were a laptop, students' results and a few sets of PAI papers. They called me and gave my result. Ya Allah! 0_0"

The result was all straight A+ but only PAI, I got A!

What happened?

Ustazah said that I need 1 more marks in orther to get me an A+! Ya Allah, I was shaking a lot till my leg could not bear my own weight and i felt to the ground. Ustazah asked me to take my answer papers and check if there any possibilities for me to increase my marks.

It kind of weird. How come we can check back our papers by our own? Chill, it's just a dream! XD

After a few times looking through the answer paper, I couldn't find anything which can help me to increase my marks. *tears rolled again. T.T

Ustazah said, its okey. Just be redha. Sobs3! I got out of the hall and cried a river of tears. How couldn't I be so sad. Hoping to get straight A+ but end up with 8A+ only.

Then, I woke up!

That's it. I do hope that all those dream won't come true but why does it occurs twice? It's like a hint from Allah that I have to be prepared for something like this. Yes, prepared for the worse. >_<"